Before I start this, I would just like to say Merry Christmas Eve to everybody.
This year is a lot different than last year. This is mine and Jeff's second Christmas together, but this time we are on the other side of the world, with oceans between us, and 6 hours time difference. I look out of my window and I see palm trees and mountains. It's paradise for the next person. However, it's extremely difficult for me to think of Hawaii as paradise today. I skyped with one side of my family, and I couldn't hold it together. My family is so very important to me. Growing up Christmas Eve with the family was the best, and it was my favorite holiday. It's the one time a year where family from all over get together and just laugh and have a great time. Seeing how big my cousins are getting, how much my brothers and sister are growing up, it kills me. I miss the feeling of a hug from my dad. I miss the laughter, and everyhing.
But, I have to be strong. I'm where I am because I WANT to be. I chose this life style when I said "I do." I should be thankful my husband isn't deployed this Christmas. I should be thankful for the life I live, the people in it, etc. I am. So before I keep rambling and rambling I'm going to get off of here and try to enjoy my holiday. It's a happy day.
Happy Birthday Jesus.